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The three Personality Disorders songs deal with the topic of suicide. I do not claim to be an expert on the subject, these are just my thoughts applied to song form. The first song, "but i love your thighs", deals with a close friend telling me they wanted to take their life and my reaction to it. The second song, "but it's never enough", speaks to my own incapabilities as a result of anxiety and depression. The third song, "and to everyone", is framed like a suicide letter and taking one's life.

Ben of Naturally the foundation will bear your expenses is one of my best friends in the world and I adore his band beyond belief. I am ecstatic to share a split with his band.
Check out more of his band here: naturallythefoundationwillbearyourexpenses.bandcamp.com

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released April 21, 2015

The players on this Personality Disorders record are:

Daniel - Drums, Production, Mixing, Mastering
Christopher - Synth, Production
Lynn - Bass, Production
Jorge - Guitar, Vocals, Lyrics

I'd like to thank Dan, Chris & Lynn for helping me put together a full band over the past year. They're my best friends in the world and have helped take my music farther than I could ever do so alone in my bedroom. I am in debt to them endlessly.

This record is to be put out on cassette tape by Driftwood Tapes and Little L Records.

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Personality Disorders New York

Songs to fall asleep to.

Bedroom recordings; May 2013-January 2016.

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Track Name: but i love your thighs
i think you're beautiful even when you don't think so. I think you're beautiful even when you're not.

I'm not trying to romanticize your sadness, I just want you to be okay.

I like you, but you'll never notice.
I'll give you all of my self worth if it means you stay alive.
Please don't kill yourself, let me kiss your thighs.

Because I've been there myself before and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but myself. I want better for you and myself.

I just want to see you smile.

I like you, but you'll never notice.
I'll give you all of my self worth if it means you stay alive.
Please don't kill yourself, let me kiss your thighs.
Track Name: but it's never enough
I'm sorry for being so emotional. I've hurt more than I could ever take back.

I just get so caught up in my future that I forget how to live in the present.

So here's a song so I never forget about the kind of piece of shit I am. You are, so I am. You are, so I am someone who cannot forgive themselves for the sins they have committed and you are the victim. You are the victim.

I'm sorry for waking up.
It's never enough just to stay alive.
No, it's never enough just to stay alive.
Track Name: and to everyone
I wasn't supposed to wake up. I turn to my phone and then I talk to you.

Mom, I am so sorry, I never discussed these issues.
Dad, I am so sorry, you were never the goddamn issue.
It's the last day of my life and everyone I love is still alive.
Their lives will go on and then mine will not.

Because it's never enough just to stay alive.
It's never enough to be by someone's side.
It's never enough, because I don't belong here.
And to everyone: I'm sorry.
Track Name: Naturally the foundation will bear your expenses - Twenty-four twelve
I saw a car that looked just like yours today in front of the coffee shop where we used to play Scrabble when we were both home from college: a baby-blue Honda, a two-door with headlights that tapered to a point on the edges of the hood. I froze up momentarily as I turned into the parking lot. I was debating shooting straight through, turning around, and driving back home. I haven’t been consciously avoiding you this winter, but when a man in a brown workman’s coat turned a key in the door of the car, I felt so relieved.
Track Name: Naturally the foundation will bear your expenses - George Lucas, wherever you are
Being home is watching movies all day and walking downtown with my glasses hung on my shirt so everything goes fuzzy and no one is recognisable and nothing seems quite real. I am worse than the coffee you left on the table in December in the dead of winter. There are more people who I’m terrified to see than there are people I’d like to spend the evening catching up with. I feel constructed.
Track Name: Naturally the foundation will bear your expenses - Are you really just an unusual concoction of chemicals drifting in a vast sea of time & space?
In January, I entered my final semester of college and what will probably be my last year at home. I’ll miss the way fresh snow feels under thick boots, constantly melted and replenished by the cycles of Midwestern winter. I’ll miss the idea that I’m someone with potential and that after this comes something better. As last year came to a close, I sat on John’s couch with his friends eagerly anticipating the future.